||[23 Apr 2004|01:16am]
blackorgasms: most everyone is shallow
bluer3my: but shes pretty bad
blackorgasms: there's very few people i've met who have more than one dimension to them
blackorgasms: linda is pretty simple, yeah
bluer3my: ive never met anyone with any true depth
bluer3my: even i have none
blackorgasms: and by true depth you mean what?
bluer3my: being concerned with anything but themselves
bluer3my: some people are better than others
bluer3my: but even mother theresa was a selfish fuck at the end of the day
blackorgasms: i used to have a really strong sense of justice, that got crushed early on
bluer3my: i still do
bluer3my: but i find it ok to commit crimes on others
blackorgasms: i dunno if you've noticed but i seem able to predict with almost, if not perfect accuracy when something bad is going to happen
blackorgasms: my mood changes
blackorgasms: and i mention it a lot
blackorgasms: but sometimes i dont
bluer3my: i used to be like that
bluer3my: but i just stopped caring
blackorgasms: everyone gets vibes, and most are bullshit
blackorgasms: my only theory into it is, that life itself has an energy, the wavelength of which can change when altered by feelings, and it seems a few people can pick up on the chnge and learn to identify what it is
blackorgasms: but that doesnt explain knowing that some asshole was gonna walk out and throw rocks at us for knocking over trashcans
blackorgasms: so i suppose you have to take it to a deeper level than that, perhaps that the unified energy has its own conscious, or sense of right if nothing else
bluer3my: or maybe doing stupid shit will get rocks thrown at you eventually
bluer3my: and thats it
blackorgasms: naw, it's served me in other ways... i dunno, you tend to make connections that dont really exist in your mind
blackorgasms: and disgaurd the ones that dont connect
blackorgasms: but either way, most lives seem blatantly simple to me, mine just always gets complex somehow, for no reason
bluer3my: complex lives doesnt really mean anything
bluer3my: humans are machines
bluer3my: we all behave the same
bluer3my: no matter what
blackorgasms: if you want to put it that way, all life is machine like
blackorgasms: all life in general behaves the same
blackorgasms: and it's all completely insignificant in the end
bluer3my: i wrote a paper on that actually
blackorgasms: i've written several
bluer3my: arent you special
blackorgasms: i got the name HIV because at one point i believed it was a cure to humanity
bluer3my: cure humanity from what?
blackorgasms: or at least a way to control numbers if nothing else
bluer3my: whats there to cure
blackorgasms: haha, not to cure humanity from soemthing, to cure the world of humanity
bluer3my: and what is the cure to the world
bluer3my: all it is is a big machine also
blackorgasms: everything can be considered a machine, but we arent modelled after machines, machines are modelled after life
bluer3my: how do you know that
bluer3my: i believe the machines made us and then we made machines
bluer3my: God is a machine
bluer3my: all this didnt come from nothing
bluer3my: but who made the machines?
blackorgasms: i know enough about physics to say it probably did
blackorgasms: with infinite space, it had to happen, and is happening infinitely
bluer3my: and what makes physics correct?
bluer3my: it is human reasoning
blackorgasms: that i can see and feel more examples of it than i can god
blackorgasms: its an educated guess
blackorgasms: god is just a story
bluer3my: i am god
bluer3my: but the point remains
bluer3my: we are all machines
bluer3my: we came from machines
bluer3my: and we make more machines
bluer3my: every generation of machines is seemingly more advanced, but in truth they are degrading
bluer3my: think of all the things we can do that machines cant
bluer3my: yet people still think they are superior
bluer3my: we will eventually degrade into nothingness
bluer3my: and nothingness
blackorgasms: you live in a very different world than i do.
bluer3my: and god will create a machine
bluer3my: what world is that
bluer3my: a schizophrenic world?
bluer3my: yes i know
blackorgasms: but there is some truth to it
blackorgasms: technology has rendered evolution obsolete
blackorgasms: the crippled, the retarded, the weak all thrive where they would have once died
blackorgasms: thanks to human society
bluer3my: technology is de-evolution
blackorgasms: we dont grow stronger, with every passing day we rely more and more heavily on technology, we grow weaker
bluer3my: it has stunted our growth beyond compare
bluer3my: this is why i hate machines
bluer3my: they make us weak
blackorgasms: ever have interest in emps?
blackorgasms: you could cripple a country like this with one
blackorgasms: on a large enough scale
bluer3my: electro magnetic pulse?
bluer3my: the ultimate weapon against the machines
bluer3my: but beyond me
bluer3my: face it
bluer3my: im just a 19 yr old destined to drain off of society wasting away in a prison just because societies obsolete morals deemed my attempt at a better life "wrong"
bluer3my: if i kill
bluer3my: they were weaker than me
bluer3my: if i steal
bluer3my: it was destined to be mine
bluer3my: if i rape
bluer3my: what the hell was she doing turning me down!?
bluer3my: you see where im coming from dont you
blackorgasms: and morals of this culture are based on god
blackorgasms: a god that slowly wastes away, though the old cling to him because they fear death
bluer3my: not true
blackorgasms: god is for the weak
bluer3my: the morals of this culture are based upon the desire to be god
bluer3my: if they believed in god
bluer3my: they would let god punish the wicked
bluer3my: everyone wants to be god
bluer3my: the weak will always crave power and humans are weak, so its true, god is for the weak
blackorgasms: you cant let what doesnt exist punish the wicked, they carry out "gods work" interesting point.
bluer3my: thats just the way i see it
bluer3my: ive never claimed to be an intellectual tho
bluer3my: i honestly dont care about the "why" just the "what"
blackorgasms: i have no morals, i am capable of rape, murder, but compared to god i'm hardly "evil"
blackorgasms: i havent the capabilite to carry out genocide
bluer3my: is god evil?
blackorgasms: but in the name of god, it has been done
bluer3my: and if you wish to cure the world of humanity, is genocide wrong
bluer3my: in the name of many good things has wrong been done
bluer3my: people claim gods work to carry out evi
bluer3my: people claim this counrtys work to carry out theyre own selfish intent as well
bluer3my: which brings us back to what i said earlier
bluer3my: nobody cares about anyone but themselves
blackorgasms: if someone were to do something nice for another, they've only done so because it was beneficial to them
bluer3my: the minute "god" or the name of god stops favoring them, they no longer believe in him
blackorgasms: they either gain something from it, or have had their morals so twisted by socieity that it gives them a good feeling
blackorgasms: therefore they do it for the good feeling, not for the other person
blackorgasms: the sense of obligation
bluer3my: not every act is out of selfishness
bluer3my: but in the big picture, an overall portrait of self-centerdness is painted
blackorgasms: i've never had a problem with that, nor have i ever pretended otherwise, it is the purpose of life to prosper
blackorgasms: though there seems to be little point in it
bluer3my: there is no purpose to life
blackorgasms: there is purpose, but there is no point
bluer3my: its like that game in mario party
bluer3my: you wind something up to see how far itll go
bluer3my: but when it gets there
bluer3my: whats the point?
blackorgasms: nothing was accomplished
bluer3my: so yeah
blackorgasms: and in the end it's all dust
bluer3my: what you just said
bluer3my: im using mario party analogies now
bluer3my: im reaaaaaaaaaal deep
blackorgasms: we should write a book, "the religious philosophy of mario party"
blackorgasms: religious, i meant "spiritual" sounds better.
bluer3my: "the world according to mario party"
blackorgasms: mario party through the looking glass
bluer3my: "wario is god, yoshi is satan"
blackorgasms: explain how each map is a stage of life
blackorgasms: and how each game is a struggle man goes through
blackorgasms: hahahahaha, we rule